lauantai 5. huhtikuuta 2014

Drama in wonderland, and other troubles...

Hey there.

Last night me and Naomi booked hotel room from Lahti where we can stay during Desucon -14. This plan of ours became a drama-trouble for me cause it just made my friend very pissed, cause we have always gone together. I didn't think everything till the end, so here I am, feeling all bad even tough no one else even thought about the hotels or anything, and me and Naomi literally got the last hotel room of Lahti.
This entire thing exploded on my face.
I'm tired of this, that all my decisions and plans always seem to make someone sad/mad. I'm so sick of it. 
Anyhow, me and my friend had a talk about this, but at the end I still don't feel good.

Lately it's been hard to communicate with people, especially with those who usually are bit negative. :(
I still go from calm to panic within minutes, and I'm so sick of feeling like this.

I'm not going to feel all down about this, cause I just cannot take something like this anymore. Not everything is on my shoulders, and nothing is written in stone tablets, people.
Things like this can easily make me dig my own grave, but now I'm going to be adult with this and not take it too heavy.

I'm having a hard time and I'm openly telling it to you.
Please understand.




perjantai 4. huhtikuuta 2014

Cosplay madness!

Hey there loves!

I'm so happy to tell you guys that I'm finally making a cosplay, and this will be my first anime character cosplay I've ever done! I'm not professional with this hobby but gladly I'll get plenty of help during this! ^_^
I am so exited! 

The plan is




Ritsuko Mukae from Sakamichi no apollon.

Why I did pick this character is very easy to explain; she is from the series that I love to death, her personality is nice (I usually get very annoyed by the female characters.) The outfit won't require too much from bodyshape so if I'll be able to lose just a bit before summer, it will be okay.
Also she has brown hair and eyes, that I have naturally, this means that the brown wig and lenses will suit me just fine cause my natural colors are nearly same, I only need to highlight them.

One thing I was worried of that this chara alone will not be noted, I'll need some cosplay. I'm so happy that a friend of mine, Naomi offered to cosplay Kaoru, another character from Sakamichi no apollon!


(Kaoru Nishimi)

I'm very thankful to Naomi that she is doing this with me! This makes me very very very exited and honoured since her costumes are always so wonderful. I'm sure she will manage to make Kaoru very well!

What have I done so far?

Well, there is pretty much time still, since I'm not the one who is sewing my costume (my frien Jonna will sew it and  I will pay, I'm useless with sewing machine.), I have been looking around for the other features of Ritsuko. I ordered black, slightly curly wig some time ago and I decided to use same wig for this costume. I was happy to find out that the seller of this piece offered exactly same one in dark brown, so I ordered it.

I need to cut the bangs and also the entire wig needs to be shorter, I'll have lot to do with this one.
Also I already ordered lenses for my eyes, I want my eyes to pop out since the bangs of my wig will be very short. 
These are Magic Eye ones with two tones and they can be used for one year. I can't wait to test them.

I know I'm going to have plenty of trouble with Ritsuko's briefcase and shoes. The briefcase (something similar) I'll be able to find from ebay, but the shoes I don't think I'm going to be brave enough to actually order from internet, I just need to get to try them on cause my shoe size is so trouble.

While I was hunting everything from ebay, I was actually able to find glasses for Naomi, and ofc I needed to order them. 
Don't they look exactly like Kaoru's?

This is a topic that I could be writing for ages of, but let's cut this for now.

LATERS!

sunnuntai 30. maaliskuuta 2014

LAN weekend!


This weekend I took part in small computer and gaming party called GigaB1t LAN. Weekend passed by very nicely and I really had some good time with my friends. 
Sleeping was hard over there and I'm supposed to go to school tomorrow, i wish this will work out for me.


I won Saints Flow energy drink! Kiitos/Thank you PJ media productions!

Anyhow, the gaming part in this weekend was great. We had some silly matches for example LIARO, FLATOUT and SMOKING GUNS. All these were so hilarious since there were so many of us playing. Old games are awesome LAN games.
I wished that there would have been some more activity during Gigab1t, I had dreams earlier about attending into TAW's  HAWKEN amateur tournament. I couldn't get a team going and the tournament was cancelled because of the lag of teams. Too bad.


HAWKEN got this new patch earlier this week.
I totally liked the new stuff, and we finally got some funny stuff such as cockpit decorations!


Also I think it's great that they added some of these reticles! They help me to aim way better that the ones I used trough playclaw!


Earlier this week I got my water marbles from mail and I am so happy. I did wait for weeks to get them since I was so curious how would they feel and work. I was very pleased how they became.
Here's some pictures:








As you can maybe see, I was very overly-exited about these cute little marbles. The thing is that I have been having these anxiety attacks lately, even for example while gaming, and just looking and handling these tiny things help me sort out my mind and calm down.
It hasn't always been like this, just I've had hard times lately and I guess this is the result of it all.
It's fine, I'll live. Nothing there what I wouldn't be able to handle with.

Sorry about the lag of text in this post!
I'm just bit out of words but I wanted to share some of this photos with you guys. Anyhow!

MORE LATER!

tiistai 25. maaliskuuta 2014

Bad day...

Yeah, as the title says, I have had pretty bad day. 


Everything has felt so horrid and unpleasant, all my ideas have been put down already on thought-level. I feel like I don't have permissions to feel like I do about anything in this world.
People have been asking very weird questions from me today, and I have been biting my lip while answering. Whole day has been like a bad interview.
Can this day be done already, please?

Usually when I feel bad, I clean up and do some housework, just like I've done today.
There is something about it what makes me feel better, always. It's the only thing after all what helps. Sometimes also talking with someone helps, but this is the thing that works for sure.

I have been thinking about my school and studies today.
Been thinking about my career...
Everything troubles me.
I know I'll be finishing this school in 1,5 years and of course I'll finish it, but I don't know if cooking really is the thing I want to be doing till the end of time.

Life is too short that you would be doing something that you don't enjoy... Neh?
I would enjoy kitchen work, but just in right environment. Working around people who got totally negative spirit is horrible. Also people who create drama from everyday things tend to scare me.
I just cant be surrounded by such people every single day. I'd hang myself.

Yet now when I mentioned for few people about my so-called possible plans for future, everyone reacted so negatively. I hate it. It's about my future, not theirs.
I am person who totally cares what other people say, just as much as everyone else. And those who deny this, they lie.

After suffering from my human-error, I recorded a "happy" vlog entry about weekend and other stuff.
I just had to think bout something else.



I can't wait for weekend.
These LAN events always make me so happy. Gaming is fantastic.
It lets you explore other worlds and even meet new people who share same interests with you.
I don't know where would I be without internet and games, I have met people who without I wouldn't be here.

Anyhow, this is the post for today.
Sorry about this spirit here, I just can't help it...

Let's see if I can write something better tomorrow!

See you!

sunnuntai 16. maaliskuuta 2014

How can one play so badly...



Good morning! I wasn't really able to make it trough the day without sleep, but here I am once again, let's see if I can make it today.
I really got to get myself in some sort of routine.

Sunday's training was nice, but yet again I played horribly. None of my hellfires ended where I wanted them to. My team won one match but that was pretty much it.
This training session was also bit sad since one of our officers is leaving TAW. I was happy to play on his team.

I can feel that there will be some changes coming in TAW, but I guess that's just exiting.





Right now I'm once again waiting for the shops to open up. Maybe this time I can actually get there.
After that I think I'm gonna start Skyrim since I just made a new game. Installing so many graphic mods ruined my lvl 40 game, so all I could have done was restart.
I need to admit, I still haven't completed the main quest cause I am too tempted to do little quests from here to there and explore Skyrim. It's wonderful when it doesn't matter how much you'll play it, you'll always find something new from the map!

I'm off to shop now, before that, here's some photos!







Catch you later!


lauantai 15. maaliskuuta 2014

Weekend!

Oh dear...


I really hate that I get into the writing spirit on these early hours and I know I should be sleeping. Well here I am. Nothing to do about it anymore! :D

This weekend has been very smooth, my sleeping cycle is a living hell and I think my boyfriend will someday remove my head because of it, will see.
Anyways, fridays so called "sining night" on TAW's teamspeak channel was an success. Everyone came out with some sort of sounds, I just got to love when people are so funny and open!
Saturdays Hawken matches were terrible, I don't know what is wrong with me exactly but somehow today it seemed I couldn't get anything done in these games. Horrible.
On sunday night there will be our mandatory practice, I wish that I'll be able to get myself together before that. Failing into this training always feels very bad.


Out of gaming...



Next week I got my doctors appointment. I hope that he suggests me to go to school now but let's see. I haven't been too fine lately but I think just sitting at home ain't doing too much good for me.
I'm just so happy that I've got TAW members online almost at any hour of the day. It's fantastic to chat trough the days.

I got one of my new wigs! This one is dark brown, really curly one and I'm absolutely in love with it!
I'm still waiting to get another curly one, but I think it wont be as great as this one, and I might just re-sell it. Anyways I took a risk with it since it is light brown, and I don't truly know if will suit me.

My tattoo is also healing up very well, it's still bit itchy but I think it already looks how it's supposed to.


Anyhow, I'm going to go trough the day without sleep and fix my sleep times finally, let's see if I will be even able to keep myself awake for 2 hours when the shops open and I'll be finally able to get some chocolate! Thanks to my clan mate talking about all kinds of chocolate, great inception, I give you that!

Catch you later!



perjantai 14. maaliskuuta 2014

BOOM!

Welcome to my new blog!




I have been thinking about creating a new blog for ages and now I finally got something done!
This time I'll promise to keep myself active with this one since finally I think I've been able to set myself into writing mode.

As for you who don't know me, let's come out with some of the basic facts about me:

- Name is Ria
- I was born in 1989, year of snake. 
- I'm from Finland and  I love living in the land of lakes.
- My hobbies are gaming, photography and food.
- I'm a member of huge gaming clan called The Art of Warfare
- I am normally very hyper/calm, depends of the day.
- Usually I'm very thoughtful, I don't do anything without over-thinking.
- Sometimes I get hurt very easily because I don't understand things the right way (sarcasm for example).

Ria as a gamer...

I have been playing videogames from since i was very young. I remember running home from school just to get to play some of the old console games my family used to have. I grew up with games.

Nowadays It's hard to get me exited about a game since I its hard to find really good games in the genre i an looking for. I look for a good story line and multi-functionality. Also I like games that have so called "full package"; good music, graphics and well written characters.
Also if the game just happens to be ridiculously funny, I forgive a lot.
 I have a passion for indie/minigames, just something where you can take it easy.

Recently played games:

- Hawken
- Skyrim
- League of Legends
- Minecraft

As a member of TAW, my gaming time mostly taken by Hawken.
I have adored robots from the early days and this game has the so called "full package".
The gameplay is very nice, community is one of the best I've ever seen, you can choose from many different options to customize the game suitable for just you. (Mech choices, items, internals... )

What's up?

Recently I have been very actively pushing myself into bunch of web-services and I just want to get myself as active with many of the social medias where I used to be as an teenager.
I have been recording some gameplay from Hawken in my Twitch.tv-streams also as I've been busy writing on the Hawken forums.
At the end of this month I will take part into small gaming event, in the small town of Loimaa. Even though this "convention" is small, i've been happily taken part of it two years on row and this will be my third. Also at the same weekend, my clan has planned an amateur tournament for Hawken players and I'm hoping that our EU division will be able to come up with a team where I could take part into. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Anyhow guys! This is my first post for now since the lack of sleep I must try to hit the deck now.

Stay tuned!

 
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